really frustrated with myself

ive always had this thing where like

if someone in a group chat posts content from someone/something 'problematic' (like, actually, as in 'this company is run by anti lgbt people or this guy is insane cuz he hates trans women' levels) i cant just like. not...comment on it

which sounds innocuous cuz like. in my head, i would rather know that someone or something i found that looks interesting is really shitty so i don't waste my time on them to get burned later

but i feel like every single time its just fucking annoying. it ruins the mood. no one wants to hear it.

but i like cant stop

if i try to just 'let it slide' or whatever i literally get so anxious that the people i care about might be buying into a really shitty company/person/etc that i get like sick from it and my brain is on fire for the entire day

but at the same time i feel like i am so close to someone yelling at me for not letting them just enjoy something that i just. aaaaaaaa. i dont know how to stop this and it sucks.

i saw a tiktok (booo) about how autism tests tend to ask 'do you like correcting people' and the person was like. no i fucking hate it actually but i can't not do it when its something important even if it makes people mad

and i just like. ugh. it sucks lol. i hate knowing this is my autism and also probably my OCD combined. i hate feeling like That Guy who cant stop being like ummmmmm

it sucks and i feel like no one likes me because of it! its great. im tired.

anyway idk if any other autists deal with this or not but it sucks. i just needed to yell. i yelled on twitter but i feel like everyone hates me for it so i needed somewhere calmer