I mentioned some stuff last week, but I think it kind of evaporated into the white noise of chatter, and I think maybe it needs its own space to really like. idk, find answers? Confirmation? w/e

So okay. "You care more about getting a deadname offline than you care about touching My Things" happened, it's over, whatever

I got called a bunch of things, largely behind my back, ghosted to my face, had feeings and got over them.

And from there, the word is usually that if there's nothing you like in the world, just build the thing you like and then it will exist and your vibe attracts your tribe

Built it, it existed, my tribe did not appear, had feelings and set them aside

so now I'm fairly jonesing for An RP again, ready to figure this out, and feeling a little extra disconnected

So I've known for a while that DWRP is smaller than it used to be, and that means that it's harder to find people who like the same things that you like, or like to play the same way.

and it feels like most of the people on my timeline kind of... don't RP anymore

or (and I say this with all the acceptance in my heart because I do not mean this in a judgey way) get more enjoyment out of talking about RP than they do from just doing the RP themselves

i've been getting back on the RP horse recently. mental health + life was just (toilet flushing noises) for a while there

also hi!

I noticed you went back to the place that pushed me out for editing out a deadname! I hope the RP is good there and that you do not trust people you know not to be trustworthy.

i'm literally just there to have access to old logs and to fart around in IC inboxes with like 2 people

both of whom are doing the same thing lol

haha enjoy it

folkmore is where i'm really playing lol

yeah, i pretty much did the same but am overall still looking for a more permenant rp solution but like you've said, the world has gotten so much smaller

yeah, the options for games are v slim pickings

there is a lot more talking about rp than actual rping

it's frustrating

I think everyone is there just for access to old logs lmao

preeeetty much

sits with, its a rough world out there idk how any of us do it

also i would agree re: the talking about rp vs. doing on the whole

i find in order to get threads of any kind going, i have to be really directive about it

not assertive, but directive

it's hard! and I'm like. Well do ANY of us still participate in this hobby

do I have to go looking for new people

slash do I have to watch an anime?

idk anything about the deadname stuff but I'm only in penance for old logs and maybe eventually doing a wrap thread but ehhhh. I have been trying out ximilia but it feels like A Lot right now given some life stuff.

they don't seem to have a problem finding threads

once we're in it, it's good. but i'm also just old and tired and want people to say what they want in the CR lmao

oh the deadname stuff isn't public but I haven't been shy about telling people what went down so I assume everyone knows

like, i am begging, please say what you want to thread with me. if i'm not into it, i'll say no nicely and them try to compromise if at all possible

oh, i don't lol

but i also don't pay attention

my plurk is technically public and occasionally makes rounds on anoncomms so I don't like to go for full deets

but like. y'all know. y'all sat with me on discord calls while I was feeling my feelings

i am active as life allows me to be an i understand slow! sometimes i am slow too! but some people don't backtag now :<

*and

I don't know shit unless someone personally tells me lol I'm just here

im happy in check-in game where i can come and go as i please lmao

i've mostly just been chilling in psls and memes, wanting more but realizing maybe there isn't the right space right now

i love you but you would not enjoy the style of games that i seem to be happiest in but you already know that

i'd say just watch oshi no ko but i already feed you like all the relevant info as it is

basically just do PSL stuff whenever life allows and then I do a lot and whole verses and I need to actually write the stuff instead of just talking about it, I want more threads to reread x) I also need focus on CR other than just shipping, I want a variety

"happy check in game" lol tried that, it was wildly unsuccessful

and I think generally people do more talking than actually playing AND many don't care for CR that isn't in some way shipping

kyuupin: look I just hope that someone is playing a ruby or aqua with "nepobaby" as the username

LOL i wish i could tell you yes but i don't actually know

but my ruby username is aididitmyway

reineke: "I need focus on CR other than just shipping" yes okay that's the other half of what I've been thinking about

it feels a little like.... What's left of the community is like. for lack of a better term, sad people who need a hug and are willing to accept it through their characters

a lot of people are here to exclusively ship and that's fine for them

let them do that all they like

but that's not really what draws me to RP? like it's a find dessert dish but never the main course

I tend to play unshippable characters lol

yeah, I am happy for people to ship and only ship, but I want more variety out of my RP

I just like to see what happens when my weird guy interacts with another weird guy from another series

so it's very hard to find a game when it seems a lot of the newer games are smut/shipping leaning and all the meme posts are also ships

these days in my PSLs I tend to play several characters and with that come several different kinds of relationships, most of them not romantic or sexual, because I like that spectrum and the compexity of different kinds of CR developing over time

yeah, that describes my PSLs too. "you have a few mains and I will play 7 characters that orbit around your mains"

which is something I used to get in games as well, but these days the way my life works it is difficult to dedicate the time to a game the way I used to

so I am lucky to have a few PSL partners that I can do that with, create entire verses and play, I dunno, half a dozen characters each

I also do enjoy plotting, and I live with my main writing partner, so we do a lot of that even as we just go to buy groceries, but I need to actually DO things too

IM GLAD YOURE DOING OK i have no context on rp discourse but hi

golden lovers are coming back

write, not tell (the RP version of show, not tell)

smithsyndicate: I SAW 👀 I am excite

SaroSaron: None of this is intended to imply that you are an unsatisfactory partner. I will play 84 concurrent threads with you all day every day

You know I love playing with you. I failed at being active in your game mostly because of timing and the fact my eyes are sometimes bigger than my stomach where rp is concerned.

lmao I never thought that for a moment

I just wish I could help you find a rp home :<

I very much like the idea of a game that's just "show up and play" but without either the external threat of getting kicked out of a game or the dopamine rush of a fresh ship I can't get my brain to run

oh yeah there were a lot of reasons that game didn't do well, and a lot of it was just "your friends are trying to placate you but aren't interested in this thing that interests you" which was also why it didn't work out as a largescale PSL tbh

even if I have big plot ideas it always seems too hard to actually sit down and string the words together without some level of make-brain-go chemicals

i've been trying to get back into rp but the memes get old when literally none of the memes click with you and you struggle to find engagement with ones that do, so like, i keep thinking?? game?? but man i haven't found one that vibes with what i want out of a game just yet and the ones i was like "oooh..." about never took off

exactly!!!

I was never very into tfln-y play but it feels like the people who play a lot are the ones who really vibe with tfln

and it feels like being in a parallel dimension

dwrp is a lot

lmao i keep playing characters who have a love interest and thus are pre-taken so i mostly do platonic cr

honestly its a mixed bag wherever you go. its really difficult to curate your own corner. i wish it was easier

to some its worth it, others not so much.

also i caught up to the rest of this plurk and i feel feeling like, unsettled lmfao i JUST was able to carve out a space in ximi within the last few months and am still feeling ??? about my other game

i am sorry you are looking for somewhere to land still

as someone who also plays a lot of shipping hardmode / canon love interest characters i respect people out to ship only but i cannot do that, i play too many weirdoes and love interesting platonic cr too much.........

I tend to gravitate toward characters that are like. The love interest in a story that isn't about them, but who have complicated daddy issues or some other kind of emotional hole to fill

and then it's like "oh you're playing the love interest you are clearly here for shipping" and I'm like "actually no I'd like to throw this child into a situation that will make them cry"

I like tfln because it's accessible quickly; it's not the best quality rp usually but nothing else is as active and open to just random rp

"why are you acting like that's weird"

I wish we had other similar stuff like sixwordstories and places that just encouraged random cr without a huge amount of investment

I love when a ship develops organically within that too tho like, I now have a ship with a built in expiration date that the characters are gonna eventually be aware of icly bc 1) aforementioned big canon love interest 2) multiverse shit

shipping is fun but I want weird angles too

honestly? I feel like my RP ship goals peaked during Luceti. Daisuke and Molly Hayes bonding over being the only kids in a jamjar full of BORING LOSERS

holding hands and watching the sun set

I've written ships before and since but not a single one was that pure

though Dick finally getting Natasha to agree to make out with him was also a high point

he worked REALLY hard to get that date

fully on the merit of "she's a redhead and he's into those"

i play a love interest and i go out of my way to try and write shippy shit with literally anyone else, but i also play an Iconic Hot Girl love interest so sadly most of what i attract is horny. i def feel like i gotta go out of my way to avoid people as not to force my ship on them, though, so like... the shipping aspect is a whole other Thing.

YES people get so weird about ships omg

"our characters love each other and we threaded one time so NOW I OWN YOU"

"I've noticed you tagging someone who isn't me and I FIND THIS UPSETTING"

nah nah it ain't serious like that

like pls these are literally just internet barbies let's not make it a whole issue!!