so much has happened in the last 48 hours that I literally cannot process. The worst of it would need a trigger warning to talk about and I don't have the spoons for that.
My brain and heart are literally full, if one more thing happens I'm going to bluescreen and crash.
And as the only one capable of emotionally intelligent conversation in this house, I have to put my stress aside to help them through this and I literally don't know how long I can keep doing that.
And I feel guilty for even complaining about stress when some people involved have legit massive trauma from whats going on.
just remember, secure your own oxygen mask first. it's going to be exponentially harder to help others, if you've already pushed your limits too far.
I know, I've already been forced to take mental health time off by my boss for a week once, and that was before all this. and I'm the only income so I need to not get fired. but it's hard not to be there for them when they need me