I acknowledge I've been rather nonexistent. For which I apologize to all my wonderful thread partners. ;;
I have been going through something of an existential crisis where I decide if RP is still for me. In addition, to having a lot of things to do on weekends lately, which are typically my strongest RP times.
I'm going to focus on doing things this month to see if I can get my vibe back.
I don't want to drop since I really have been enjoying my CR. But I also don't want to be doing something just because I've always done it. So I'm finding myself more or less.
I guess I'm also trying to figure out what I want out of RP. Rather than just DOING RP. Which I think will help in the long run.
What I want out of my character, Seasons and my CR.
I admit I'm not a person who thinks about it as much as others might. I'm a very go with the flow sort of RPer. But I think structure at least in my overall approach to threads might help me feel fulfilled.
I am definitely having fun with my CR and I love playing with the people i play with, there's no problems there. But I think there's a lack of fulfillment that results in me wanting. And if I can nail down that true want, I think I can better shape my ideal RP style.
Because it's nothing anyone else is doing, it's me not developing things in a way that hits that want.
And that starts from Tag 1 on my side. I love tagging just to see what happens. But I think I personally need to give myself more direction.
So I think that's the whole soul-searching thing going on with me.