why am i thinking a lot about my parents right now? theyre both problematic. my dad is workaholic perfectionist and my mom is, well, its so bad i dont even know where to start

for a person na ang mantra sa buhay is to try be a little better everyday, im not doing so well. downright failure.

mistakes left and right. im just a disappointment to anybody.

damn. grabe yung self pity natin today

hay. i need you right now. pero knowing you, youre not even gonna set aside your anger. mainly because you dont want to, not because you cant.

pucha big words, pero napakatamad naman. im actually just trying to simplify my life. yun lang naman gusto ko.

haynako dad. kung belt lang naman ang naiwan mo wag ka nang bumalik. wala naman may paki kung may belt ka or wala. ikaw lang.

i guess i will stay here because nobody is here

for context i was seventeen when i started to actively remove jealousy from my personality. this is stemming from a courtship that went bad because i thought we had a mutual understanding and that we were exclusively dating. turns out we werent.

sometimes i wonder kung masama ba na hindi ako nagseselos? i honestly forgot how it feels.