I don't know what other things I can be good at. God help me. Help me keep my sanity. Help me help my family and myself. I know I am not destined to win the lottery to solve this conundrum.
I am tired of teaching. It is no longer worth it. I can't be a programmer or a systems administrator or related to it because I am not that good. My interest to the field is no longer there.
I am an IT graduate but I am not good at programming, configuring the network, troubleshooting PCs, making software, and even know the latest stuff related to the field. What other field I can be good at?
I always think I am good at something but somehow I am unable to produce results and unable to prove I am good. I never have a significant achievement that equates financial gain and personal happiness.
I think there is nothing more in me to be unleashed. I have reached my apex and that apex is lower than average. I am obsolete and I can't sustain my ambitions all through the years. Forever mediocre.