I don't even know who am i anymore i've been taking order for the longest time and make me forget what i want

I'm scared to know thr fact that i'm not as good as people thoughy about me. I'm scared for making mistakes by taking this.

I'm not ready to give up my dream yt but i don't think i'm capable doing any of this

I can't picture us not seeing each others for weeks. I'll terrible miss you

Guess i just love you too muh.

And now i'm crying like a baby. Sorry for being too much

I can't stand for not have all the updates of everything you do. I just want you to be okay.

It's like i've the big hole on my chest and it won't heel.

I don't want you to be around me anytime. I need you.

I need time to think about me. Without people judgement. Advise. And anything just me and my mind/