A calm heart and mind comes from knowing that there is immense effort on your part: the knowledge that you're not letting yourself down.

Ah, heavy head. What have I done?

Abundance of happiness.

I uncovered more about you.

What are you worth?

The effort, the smile, this confidence, this pride. They all just mask the stinking reality beneath: I am a piece of shit.

It can seem like a dream, when how we communicate in real life, is exactly how we communicate in various other forms.

It's hard to not crack when there's no other way out. So we don't crack. Because there's no other way.

The thing about pushing it through, keeping it on, is that you're able to track progress.

Hm. Would I wanna see rad when I look for my own reflection? I wanna. I wanna. I wanna. But I'm holding myself back.