I just want to meet myself now

Im afraid of things but more afraid to end things

I think I just wanna go home and hug my husband, but I feel afraid of something bad that might happen if I come home

Because I feel sad and I dont know why, I dont want to wake up and I dont know why, I feel like I need to do something but dont know what, I just wanna cry now

Come here to find myself again

i am just a human. i am flawed. i am imperfect. i am not the one who always did right. other people is also human. other people can make prejudice and make false judgement to me. and that's okay. we just need a good communication and an open mind, if we wanna know the truth.
it's okay. this is normal. not everything is under my control. let it be.

being angry doesn't mean you can be disrespectful to someone else.

it hurts too deep.

why is it so hard to communicate with you?

will i ever be enough? for who? should i?