Wow rusak hari impianku

I am not a good partner. I need to learn to love him the way he want to be loved, by his love language.

I think he is unstable, so I cant be furnerable in front of him. Being furnerable in front of him makes him takes the blame, while Im not blaming him at all.

Im too afraid to see his tweets. Im too aftaid to see the truth.

everyone is getting better but me?

Dreaming about death and think about it makes me feel… numb(?)
As I look at the blue sky tonight, I wonder, is this my turn? Am I ready yet?

Bangun pagi bagus, packing saat org lain tidur juga terserah, tp jgn berisik (pack&unpack pake plastik kresek) dlm waktu lama dong 😭

Berisik, aku nggak suka teman sekamar yg berisik

Firstly I admit that I miss them, I told them what I feel. Validation really helps. I tried to navigate my feelings -my energy-, to give the feeling some rest and move my focus to other things I (used to) enjoy. Reading & writing.

Better. I feel better after finishing something. Sense of achievement?