eternally grateful for Plurk to simply just existing all these times.

lololol do i look like suicidal to you lmao this is the reason why i fucking don't want to talk about my issue to any therapist out there bcs (no offence) though i know it's their job to listen to ppl's shit but still they're human beings too so yeah why bother (and for my own "friend" to "judge" me just like that is hilarious)

It's funny how, when you've done reflecting on the things that you missed these past few days, all of that things lead to one conclusion: that the problem was, is, and will always be you. It's funny how the people you 'used to' call 'bestfriends' are strangers now. It's funny how things 'just' happen in life. It's funny how you don't even know yourself.

Hehe

I'm already at the age where almost everybody around me is either got engaged/got married and I'm not saying that it's annoying; it's just that wow they're already moving on to the newer chapter in life while I'm still here trying to figure out how to win against my inner demon lmao

This hits hard. Didn't mean to sound like an ungrateful brat here but I truly forgot how it feels to be genuinely happy. All I've been feeling for the past two years was all pseudo-happiness I think. 🙃

Hehehehe

Lol it seems as if even the universe is mocking me for being so selfish and stubborn; what a great way to love yourself, Bel. sarcasm intensifies #abaikan

I'm so sorry Plurk. I only use you as my trashcan, like literally. Whenever I feel so fed up about the world and literally everyone, and I really want to stay out of social media but also at the same time I want to bitch about it; I always ended up coming back to you. Just like what I do right now.

LOL