oke jg gue ga pernah mau lg ketemuan sama this person who once stood me up after i waited for a whole fucking hour. granted i had other things to do so i didnt waste all my time but it was just insane especially since the person only had to walk less than a kilo from their house to where we were gonna meet. the sheer entitlement and laziness. fuck right off

HAPPY BIRTHDAY nininditya

always grateful for the education i received, but being sent away at 16 with absolutely no plan for a support system to replace parental guidance really did break me as a human. in many ways since then ive been barely functioning in the "normal" way that might have allowed me to gain a bit of happiness in life. its all dark now

kdg kl ambil jemuran di atas, & cuma gue yg regularly ambil jemuran di rumah ini, like seriously, ga ada yg kepikiran, hey maybe sometimes hed like it if he doesnt have to angkat jemuran sehari dua, but yeah, kdg di atas, memandang mobil² melintas di ujung gang, i find what amounts to a little peace. until the next load of laundry (yg jg cuma gw yg ngerjain)

gak di rumah, gak di luar rumah, gak ada yg bisa diajak bantering. org ga ngerti sarkasme, ga terlalu suka sarkasme, terlalu sensitif, kegedean ego, maunya ngobrol yg macam apa sih? i dont understand the world

berusaha mengingat² kapan terakhir kali seneng aja

shit gue lonely banget ni help

kebanyakan ngelawak ga dianggap serius pas teary hehe

some people just lie even if they know people will clock them for lying. they know theyre not gonna have to suffer any punishment for it anyway. lying is like this ephemeral thing, an invisible shroud over the furnitures of reality. these liars know they can act with impunity since aint nobody gonna care about any damn metaphorical shroud! thats impunity 4 u

one of her very few tasks to order galon and it's been three days. what else can i say, what else can i do. ive accepted the fact ive been an enabler of her incompetence. it is me who has let her weaponize it to her heart's content. but now that ive realized my mistakes, and taken steps to remedy them, but shes unwilling to remedy hers, what CAN i do?