swinging so hard towards hypomania that I feel dizzy and disoriented ugh

I am alternating between so depressed I don't want to get out of bed and hypomanic and racing on all cylinders and it's kind of a lot!! would like to get off this mental coaster

I wish depression was at least a little responsive to logic. but alas. even when it's in response to situations you can, theoretically, effect it hangs on.

I'm figuring out the balance with the new psychiatrist between me having lived in this brain for three decades and knowing my symptoms/risks/tolerances, and him being fresh out of med school with all the new information but no experience

my spine has been flirting with the idea of spasms all day and it is very stressful! also my right leg is not working! all it has to do is carry my weight and bend!

Today is my last day in medical research and if they have me in a telemetry round all day I am going to scream

I am still pink in places that are somehow under my clothes that I was pretty sure did not get hit with chalk because I was wearing clothes