grief is just so weird.
my dad passed recently and I feel like I'm living a nightmare. I cry at the drop of a hat, I feel so mentally exhausted, I feel like I have to anchor everyone down bc I'm the oldest. I have to have my shit together so I'll cry later.
I feel so tired.
idk sorry for the sadness on plurky feed but
the exhaustion is another level.

my dad passed away. so I'll be distant. I'm just in shock, we knew what the

I don't know. I'm just so shocked. I'm so tired and sad, I can't cry.

I never expected it to go like this.

last week: my dad received a horrible diagnosis, I got vertigo on wednesday, my family is in shambles because of my dad's diagnosis. I barely sleep and I start crying whenever anyone asks if I'm okay bc no I'm not.

I am asking for one good day. please.

I can relate to alicent’s exhaustion by now:

the poorly cut bangs is a right of passage as a woman. you must appease the mental breakdown gods.

the whole bear vs men discussion is kinda funny. I mean I would choose bears too. but wouldn't it be like idk, if you're a dude, a reality check? like say, women are so scared of you that they choose an animal that can tear them to shreds over you.

like say I would think, maybe the approach I'm using isn't working?

Life update:
My dad has been in the hospital for about two weeks and finally a diagnosis has come in. The next few months will be horrible for me. He is going downhill fast so I don't know I just want some love and encouragement if I could get any.

health update: it was indeed vertigo. The cause was stress and well waking up wrong and getting up wrong. I was prescribed some dizziness pills only for when the vertigo returns. I'm not allowed to work tomorrow and I'm scheduled off Friday.

I don't know the stress of my dad and trying to keep things afloat got me to me.

I need a hug ngl.